I know I say that I'm just fine, But I hope you wonder from time to time. Brian completely made me angry yesterday. He knew that we had plans and I understand that things come up but still. We were supposed to hang out and I had to play cat and mouse chase to even try to get ahold of him. Without a 'how was work' or 'how was your day' or anything, he says hi to me and than says can we hang out later and I was like what the fuck. I was at work having the worst day of my life and I was planning on seeing him and than I couldn't. He knew I was mad but thoughts or words couldn't express how sad and angry I was at the same time. I felt like I needed to see him and it didn't matter to him that we had plans or anything :/ sometimes I just hate boys. I have to work again today and I barely slept last night :/ it sucks because when I get in these moods sometimes I can't sleep at all. I'm pretty much back to no sleep and one meal a day which fucking sucks ass but there's nothing I can do about it. Its like no matter what I can't change any of that. Well its still ass early so I'm gonna go back and lay down. Hope you all have had better days than me.