So i just found out that i am not who i want to be to some one i really care about, actually the only person i really care about. i never wanted to come off to this person as i geuss i did. i never knew what was going on with us and just found out. over the last few days i've looked over my "friends" and realize i'm no longer who i tried to be. i was so much more happy as a goth and now im just a fake. i just want the person who i've hurt to know that i am sorry to have treated her like i did. i have found who i am and wish to be alone now. its sad to say this again, but fuck u all. i'm tired and am pulling away from what has been the best thing in my pathetic life, the people who i have attached mysef to at the expense of myself. i feel this song: Hurt i hurt myself today to see if i still feel i focus on the pain the only thing that's real the needle tears a hole the old familiar sting try to kill it all away but i remember everything what have i become? my sweetest friend everyone i know goes away in the end you could have it all my empire of dirt i will let you down i will make you hurt i wear my crown of shit on my liar's chair full of broken thoughts i cannot repair beneath the stain of time the feeling disappears you are someone else i am still right here what have i become? my sweetest friend everyone i know goes away in the end you could have it all my empire of dirt i will let you down i will make you hurt if i could start again a million miles away i would keep myself i would find a way Goodbye- Ben