it always tickles me that people just assume i'm intelligent. what are they basing that on, i wonder? i think it's the glasses. oh well, who knows. in conversation with my dear friend jess today, i came to the realization that i am exactly like my little brother when it comes to academics. if i don't like a class or subject or whatever, i will not try. i'm incredibly lazy. i can do it, i just don't. that's really not a good way to be. haha... awesome. i really hate drama. i also really hate people who say one thing and mean another. and needles. and my speech class. and some other stuff. but not me. a step forward? most definitely. letting go of vices is hard, but it's really rather un-christian of me to put myself down all the time. after all, God made me. i'll trust He knew what He was doing. ps - elliot smith is dead? why is everyone dying lately?? is death finally trendy? pps - i can't believe i didn't catch on to all the million ways He was trying to get my attention. in retrospect, they were everywhere. weird/awesome how that works. and i can't believe it's taken me this long to drop the negativity. but i'm doin' it, finally. rock out. ppps - i love you, sitDiary. yeah, we grew apart for a while. i'm over being over you, baby.