ok, here i am... just took a nap. and i had a series of weird dreams. lets just take a quick run through of what happened in them. -my mom died -we went to night school. -my dad was following me around school. -my mom told us she was dying -i cried so hard in my dream i swear i was crying in real life while i was sleeping -matt was there -angelita was there -i drove my mom's car home, or at least tried -i had to go live with my dad, siCk! lmfao i guess i did a lotta thinking in my dreams.. not really. LOL i got good sleep, thank God. i havent slept like that in a long time. i usually have weird dreams when i cry myself to sleep for no reason. i mean the reason i was crying didn't match the reason why, yea. i dont know how to explain how i am feeling..... one word: PMS. actually thats an abbreviation of three words but LOL u get it. this is the most emotional i've ever been during this time. wOah! my hair is really soft, btw just thought u would like to know that. :D umm to the ppl-- i'm sorry for everything, earlier today was stupid. i'm just sorry. it was sooooo uncalled for. but thank you. for just being there. u kno who u are. ;) i didn't want to face that, but when u got someone like Amanda that knows u like the back of ur fucking hand... it was bound to come out eventually. aha, i love her. to DEATH! and then some. :) thats pretty much it. *sigh* I YOU MATTHEW! [and i'm especially sorry to you. :)]