Listening to: my mother's johnny cash - what else?
Feeling: accomplished
cleaned my closet out--
found some old ass shit in there.
found your valentine's day card from february of 04.
i burned it; something that i had put off for so long. a NOVO card, the cheapest brand.. u were so thoughtful. i burned it, not feeling any remorse at all, thinking of everything that u've ever done to me and let it burn, inhaling the smoke and all. i burned my window sill.. i take that as a momento of the time i let EVERYTHING go, everything that has to do with you. there aren't any feelings left there anymore. there is NOT ONE memory of you left in me; ANYWHERE. i'm through with you. for good, for now, forever. i should've done these things a long time ago, and that is the only thing i regret in life--
the fact that i didn't move on from you earlier...
its pathetic really.
but that part of my life is over, everything is over now. everything about u is gone from my life.
i feel so much better now.
burning things truly helps. Its symbolic of put it back into the earth. Been there done that. Burned many things. i'm glad things are good Amanda