Wow... Karen thinks about suicide... looks at pill bottles... Chane and karen and tasha and matt have their own little clique going i guess they are planning on leaving august next year all together now! see how much i mean to everyone? i dont now i dont feel as bad about slitting one of my wrists the other night i didnt mean to...it just kind of happened and i think im losing my touch with reality. i walked out of my room last night, and its like i phased out..kind of woke up and i was screaming and both my parents were looking at me... they just thought it was something randomly srange i was doing ((i do things like that a lot)).. but it wasnt.. and it kind of scared me and kind of made me relieved maybe if i lose touch with reality, ill feel better inside.. knowing that i dont matter that much to anyone kind of puts suicide before them now i want to kill myself, but i dont want to die.. ...does that make sense?