I'm still half expecting Brendon to walk through my door and for everything that's happened, to be one big dream. It's not a dream and he's certainly not going to walk through the door any time soon. I miss him. Rob opted for the familiar. I wonder how long his need will last and how quickly he'll move onto someone new. I miss him too. No. I miss the way he made me feel. I guess I've finally gotten up the courage to move on and pick my life up. I'm now a beauty representative and actually enjoying it. And I got set up with Kwinton. The nice, shy boy who can't wait to see me again before I'm even gone. Sigh.