oh my god... im going to lose it. im going to fucking lose it. im going to...stab someone... ...or...stab myself... or...make the drawings on my wrists real... i fucking knew it...i fucking knew this would happen...they were right...they were right all along...i should have never trusted... but i did... screw stabbing myself...its already been done for me. if only the emotion pain i was feeling could somehow be made physical...then i could bleed to death, straight from the heart, and i wouldn't have to worry about hurting anymore. well you know what? ...FUCK YOU TOO. Today I fell and felt better Just knowing this matters I just feel stronger and sharper Found a box of sharp objects... what a beautiful thing