I feel like a gargantuan freak, I really do. I've lost ten pounds since last monday on this diet, and I am totally not feeling any smaller. I will always be a giant, ugly, fat person. Just like he said. Ew, ew, ew, I make myself sick. Grant didn't say anything about the note. In fact, he was pretty much the same as yesterday. Maybe I was wrong. Maybe he doesn't like me, or anything. I mean, I guess I want answers too definite and too quickly. Maybe I should tell him. Should I tell him? Today in the locker room Ellen and Ashley were talking about abs, and Ashley said "Join swim team and you'll get some." and I laughed so hard I thought I would die.