i want to write. i have thousands of thoughts rushing through my head. but i can't put them down on paper. or in my case a computer. i wish some people could just read my mind. that way i wouldn't have to tell them how i feel, they would just know. but then that could get ugly. they might find out more than you want them to. . . i miss him. i miss talking to him everyday. i asked him if he wanted to take a phone call earlier this evening. he told me he didn't feel like talking. is it ok for me to cry?