tommorow i'm still cleaning.. Writing in journal.. trying to get the scent of two cigerettes off of me so no one can smell me yet i think it has worn off I have allergies now.. ugh and my asthma is there.. i keep coughing... yet i am still here.. ok go is good.. NOO no no no no no non ono... NO! i dont wanna meet your new friend.. i just want everything it used to be.. i want to be good. Hanging out and making plans. and not really doing htem but hanging out anyways.. i just feel so bad...