i feel lost...alone...i so desperately want to fit in...but can't...im writing a diary...i dont know why...no one will read it...oh well...here goes...i hate goodbyes.x.akward hellos.x.the fear of darkness.x.best friends who dont care.x.sunshine.x.when friends end their sufferings and leave you behind.x. i love the rain.x.that i need pain.x.chocolate anything.x.stuffed animals.x.comfort food.x.cold dark days.x.england.x.and not caring about what people think about me even though it kills me.x.