Listening to: the clickety clackety of others typing
Feeling: jocund
I feel strange...cause...on the one hand I have another poem to put up...but on the other...I wrote it just before...I apparently...hung myself...I don't even know if it was an accident anymore...it's confusing...well wutever here it is it's elegantly named highschool(donevan)
walking alone
throbbing pain
self mutilation
alone in the rain
tears we don't cry
a single blade
pain gets us high
blood shines red
smile in darkness
talk to a friend
she tells me to do things
she lives in my head
sit in a corner
cant comprehend why
though I'm just 15
I'm longing to die
suicide attempt
number 67
but when i die
there is no heaven
so i tie the noose
i tie it tight
wish my love
a pleasant night
suicide attempt
number 68
kick the stool
and anticipate
cuts off circulation
my breathing sharp
i see my blood
then only dark
i think of you
and remember the times
you yelled at me
and told me to die
and so i thank you all
for now you've won
ruined my life and now its done.
there it is...tell me what you think anyway-cassie xox
edit://...my little sis is pissing me off...long story...so I'm sitting here now...with like strange dieing hair...I cut my hair now I have bangs...and it's like really short and I died my bangs pink and I died under my hair...pink...it looks so awesomely gothik I love it...I bought slipknot iowa yesterday...because...I had it and then it got stolen...by icky ex justin...oh well...I know why you blame me, I know why you plague me, I know why you blame yourself, I know why you plague yourself...:) this makes me happy...yesterday I did my english exam and then I went to the mall...with keena...we found mike....once I get my scanner working...I will change my background to our photo booth pictures...it's called nosepicker and lick'd yay...jeremy kissed me on the cheek cuz I gave him a smoke...mike hit on maddie...I haven't seen her in forever...godshe is so hot...:) lol...so I have to go to eastdale for summer school...and I'll get another photo i.d. card...whopee! lol...well....i'd post another poem...but my sister won't shutup...nehu c-ya bye-cassie xox
i like the poem, but you need a happy poem like one about bunnies! hehe lol
HAPPY (late) 16TH BIRTHDAY!!!
hehe i hope it was awesome!
ohh please dont be bulimic agian. its not good! and your not chubby!
Omg, I used to get them ALL the time. But I got them so much, Ive figured out how to stop them &when to know when theyre coming. =]
I don't think I shall get off this computer. It's the only thing in this damn class that's keeping me occupied
I don't actually care if people ask me why I'm grounded. In fact, I have no idea why I'm grounded. My 'rents were being assholes and just kicked me off.
well i get them all the time. I get SUPER anxious and if i dont do nething to get.. un-anxious? I start panicing.. =/
LOVE YOU ♥ marissa
good poem. this time i read it. lol. well he is a fat pig. and um..cassie, i've had it before SOAD did that song. but we'll go with that, okay...lol. xoxo Chelle
just some guy. lol. there's a long story to that...but he's been my friend for the longest time, and when i became single from justin, we like "hooked" up, without actually being together.
he said to me on sat "i think this is the longest time i've been with someone, without actually being with them." it's like a friends with benefit thing, just not that way. lol. it's all confusing. xoxo chelle
nice poem.. very nice indeed..
take care =)
well, its all good. maybe i shouldnt be taking like 15aspirins to get rid of them but oh well..
but whats been new with you? bc we havnt talked in forever. =[
♥ [dont worry im truly fucked up too.. i just dont think anyone realizes it bc i dont show it]
Well, ya know the guy I told you that I was dating &like smoked alot? well i wasnt really dating him &he went out with this girl I HATE! but they broke up &im kinda going out with him again. =/ I dont really trust him to not cheat on me though. =/ bc today i thought hed be at the plaza where we all hang out. &he wasnt? and he hasnt called me in 2days when he said he would &when i get sad, I cut myselff.. so I guess I started that shit again..
&hes like everytime you cut im gunna drink half a bottle of jack daniels. [cause he knows i dont like drinking] but its hard to listen when i dont know where the hell he is.. =/
om gi really like that poem..really sad but i like it do you mind if i put it as my away message if i put lik ur name and diry user name at the bottom..bc i love it so much. even though its sad.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
(sorry its a little late)
i ♥ you!
-Brandi
lol, dont get pissed off, ita an easy code. all you gotta do is write & hearts; (only dont put a space after the &)
i love you too ♥
Your fuckin wierd..whats wit the blood and the cigarette...wow..get sum help..no advence