grr so lately this damn thing hadn't been working. it sucks. i had really wanted to write in here yesterday. umm soo... alots kinda been happening lately. umm sunday, went to lauren's house, and swam and shit. it was fun. monday had skool, then that nite, it was my karate test. i hope i did good. i was so nervous. i don't get to find out till saturday, argg that's too far off. hmm hw has been suckin alot lately, i hate it. i wish we never got hw, that would be cool. hmm then later that nite, just for fun, i decided to call justin's cell, cuz he got it taken away and shit. but i don't like callin his dad's cell when it's just me, i don't like talkin to parents alone, even if it's just his dad. i dun kno, its jus weird. meh so he actually had it, so i talked to him for a lil. then i finally went to sleep. then yestday amanda came over, at first we had to go by and drop peter off, she kept saying she liked him and shit. blahh i wish she would kinda make up her mind about who she likes and shit. then she was starting to think about breaking up with lance, but i kept tellin her don't. then when we got home, we called him. i don't think he likes her anymore. i mean, thats kinda good, he needed to get over her. it's not like he'd ever really be able to date her. lance would always be close by and shit. and he kne that even. that she would always go back to lance in the end. haha me n him are still friends though i think, not as close as we had been at the last year, but it's something. then lance... god, this boy is just so confusing. alrite, so apparently, yesterday, amanda (she goes to a different skool now) she had come up to our skool, to see lance, and he had been at his friend's will's house. well at will's is where they all used to smoke last year and shit, and lately, they've been smokin or drinkin. well yesterday, they were gonna do coc... but then they found out it was fake, but right after that, amanda had called and shit. but lance said he wasn't gonna do it, cuz he kne amanda wouldn't like it. meh so them two were talkin a bit on the fone and shit. then that nite i tried to talk to him.... me: you kno, just saying, if you don't want people to think your a failure, and if you wanna pass... you probably shouldn't even think of doing that kind of stuff.... i mean, it just gives people more of a reason to think you can't do anything right kinda.. him: so what if i thought about it him: at least at had the ball to say no to it me: yeah, and yall found out it wasn't real... look, i'm not trying to get mad at you.. i just don't want you to do anything stupid.. and amanda really cares about you and she doesn't wanna see you do anything stupid either him: i already decided i wasnt going to do it before we found out it wasnt real me: ok, well thats good him: yea.... me: sorry, i was just saying him: i dont like how you get mad at me for no reason. its like whevever amanda is mad at me your mad at me and you have this attitude with me....... me: i'm not mad at you me: what kinda attitude do i have? me: fine, you kno what, whatever.... not like you care whatever i say anyways him: sorry i didnt answer right away him: dad was signing up for classes at tarant county him: hang on him: parents talking to me me: k him: im sorry him: i take that back him: i want to thank you for caring about me him: thank you him: :'( him: im teary eyed right now] me: you sound cocky when your saying that... him: i dont mean to him: i just really wanna thank you him: i didnt mean what i said before me: you seem like your starting to change a lil.. and i just don't want anything bad to happen to you.. even if we don't talk much anymore.. me: it's alrite if you did mean it... i don't mind you speaking the truth... him: :-( him: i dont know what to do anymore..... me: about what? him: everything me: i kno you'll make the right decisions... him: im sorry...... me: don't be, you didn't do anything him: i want you to know that your one of my best friends me: ha me: im usre him: one of the best friends that i have ever dad him: had* me: it's fine if i'm not... you don't gotta lie.. him: im not lying him: im really not me: i remember times, when you told me you didn't trust me... that you never really told me anything... all kinda fun stuff like that him: i did say that him: and im sorry for saying those things me: don't be, i'm just fool enough to actually believe some things people say.... him: what do you mean? me: i believe things when people tell them to me... and then later out finally realize that they're not true... so i'm just saying... if you really don't mean this, please don't say it.. him: but this time i mean everythhig im telling you him: i wanna thank you one more time for everything and for being my friend him: im going to go him: ill talk to you tomorrow him: thanks for evrything one more time him: bye him: good night me: ok, its fine, bye me: see ya tom him: bye... him: your a good person me: so are you blahh, but he's so confusing. alrite, i don't feel like writing anymore rite now, so bye bye.