it seems like a weird state to be in. stuck in between panic and not panic.

the purgatory of emotions.

this virus is travelling around and at first it was a joke. a conspiracy theory wrapped in memes.

now. i see the list of those dying keeps growing. the list of infected doubles.

by the end of this week. what will we be facing.

if it was just me i could not care less. but. it isnt just me. its my tribe.

if something happened to one of them. i know my rage would explode. i know what it feels like to have your heart ripped out and handed back to you. i have been there before.

but. never let them see you sweat. we stay inside. we keep to ourselves. we hold on. we hope for the best.