It Felt Good

by valleycat
Feeling: good
I stayed up until 5 this morning doing nothing. It felt good. I'm still feeling good. It's finally sinking in that I'm in my twenties now. It's insane how fast time flies once you get out of high school. And how different people are once they get out from under their parents. My cousin/friend, Jenn just got her own place. And it's a weird feeling. Although she's only ten months younger than me I think of her as my baby sister. Sigh... Things change. My computer is infected with spyware and adware again (the !THIRD! time in !TWO! months) and I might have to crash it again. Eee it's irratating. And it's not like I don't have every kind of anti-virus, anti-spyware that they make. Machines are evil. I'm fasting again tomorrow. More later... --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 2:03 am I said "more later" and now its later. I'm going to bed soon. For once I'm tired at night. I just have to say that my friend Juliette is one of the most inspirational people I know. Like she can wrap her mind around something in a totally new way and just blow you away. Reading her diary is like meeting somebody that you just know is going to be big one day. You want to savor everything and digest it and remember. And it can't be duplicated, it's magical.
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i wish u never felt this way too


so why do u need others appoval

why did u choose to give them the power and now what are u doing


if u could do one thing in your life what would it be

i think most people are upset cause the dont know themselves truly they are confused and get engulf in modern life and get lost

God is dead

we dont have the same connection to him that the romans and dark ages middle and stuff

people cant find comfrut in nature any more they dont care the sun also raises

people dont want to think they want to be lead like sheep

nowadays with our machines and cars and jobs its hard to raise above and just be.

yea i liked talking to u too


good night


have fun at school

have ours

i think old people are bitter and say we dont care cause they went thur alot with the 30s and the war

now adays we have less responisblite then they did

look at modern girls and whores back way then and not much different

us guys like leting the world look at are underware while back then they all wore suits and hats

i miss that

also i guess they lived there lives and most of their deilluisons

were broken and lost for good

while we still

your funny


old people hate us cause we are young?

ahahahhaha

they are bitter at least


people are depressed and upset cause they care too much?

hahahahahahhahahahahah


the world is a mass and it affects us in ways we cant really expain

me either


its from this one guy that help define existentialism

its has alot of meaning it

u most likly need to go to ur local libaray to find books on this


why do old people think u care too little and why do u think we care too much?

what makes it different


god is dead

nature is dying but fight back with vengances


can u think of something mabe

?


ever read into existentialism?

[Anonymous]

so yea mabe a little


u need to go deeper i think


there is lots to

thats like the one west of the other one right

yea

i fail that class

u shouldnt slam your own state

no u shouldnt


yea many people dont know that

its happening

and some people think they are too cool to step in one and im like hey man i got to go in almost everytime im near one

oh yea


so u dont got an ideal of how to define us?

well i was just hoping


where are u?


your the writer u tell me

just look at it all


big shoes u want to fill


i got that book at goodwill for like 75cents


goodwill is happening


oh yea


so yea

are u coming on to me???


i hope so


so my choice isnt all that great think about it u could do alot with a book

books have shaped our world alot

so dont cut urself short


that cave thing is from Plato

its about the nature of truth


so what is your book going to be about?

i think i love u really wow

thats like one thing i really want to do


i think i would want to directly alter the world for the better


i can do in indirectly but not the same


i like to make believe what people are thinking of me

yea its sick and strange but it gives me control

u are capable of being in charge of urself because u are urself clearly

exactly

close your eyes and run in the cave

u may find the way out

woah, i cant believe that your brother is seventeen years younger than you!!!

thats a <b>lot</b> younger!

did you buy your anti virus stuff for your computer? like in a store? what kind do you have? i need to get some.

well i feel that way cause i do the same thing everyday


i dont go out much


i just started talking to this girl which is like the first in years it seems and she isnt what i really want


i just dont feel happy i guess

like is this the way my life is suppose to be

me working paying bill not really having time for things i like and being so alone it seems

its weird


so like how did u come up with that,

that your in control of yourself?

getting by

sadly

likly to be that way for a long time


why was your easter so good?

yea


so hey


how u been?


life treating u good?


i hope so


think about it


man is the product of nature and god so in a sick way machines are just reflections of us of nature and god


yea

fasting?


are u sure that in another sick way u are doing this to keep thin?

hey


time is fleeting


machines are the product of man


fasting again?


weird


yea


well


hello

yeah i sort of dread getting out of high school. but at the same time i'm overly excited about it. haha. everything changes and i cant decide if thats good or bad or both

yeah you should find that magazine, it was really really interesting, i think the episode was called tiny people or something so mabey the article will be called the same.

okay, you have a good night too.

:-)

geographic and they found a new species of people, they lived only like a hundred thousand years ago or something and they were only three feet tall, their brains were different from ours!!! they were probably much smarter than us because of the way their brains were shaped, it was really a fascinating show, there is a national geographic magazine all about it too.

ha ha hahhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...

that made me laugh out loud, ha ha ha... no mary didnt have the pill although im sure she wished she had something like that... heres the dirt on the jesus family [i dont know their last name] there was a couple of kids from josephs first marriage and then a couple of kids from mary, he had four brothers and two sisters and john the baptist was very possibly his cousin! i also watched this show on national

bet he was really good looking with his <b>real</b> looks, on that show that i was talking about they did this thing to show how his family would have looked, like in the place where they lived and in that time what they would have looked like and they all looked fine to me.


cheetos are my favorite!!!

okay thanks, ill try that... i really didnt want to have to go out and spend money on one!


i saw a show the other day about how there is new evidence that shows that jesus was probably not an only child either, im so glad that people are starting to show him more in a human light and as far as his looks, that is so crazy how white people couldnt stand the thought of jesus not looking like them so they just had to totally make up his looks, i

oh and yeah well i didnt have tons of chocolate, but i did have some recees pieces and some cheetoes.

i gave up chips, candy and chocolate and i craved cheetoes the most out of anything.

:-/