i am such a sucker. a sucker for everything. i've been sucked into the thngs that i hate the most. i am tired of being tired and sleeping. Being Hungery and eating. Writing just for the comments. Calling just to hear "hello" Looking at my phone just to see if i missed a call. No Doubt lyrics describe everything so perfectly. So I pacify problems with kisses and cuddles.Diligently doubtful through all kinds of trouble. Then I find myself choking on all my contradictions. i hate this Diarie. its so...Plain. There is no art. No Creativity. it makes me sick. i love my paper diarie. its so...Me. And i just write random things when i am so full with thoughts that i cannot even move. i feel myself trying to be many things. i am horrible. i love Blake. i love him. i love him. i love him so so so so so so much. i want to marry him and we will have 2.5 kids and live together somewhere in the country forver. Docking Bay 94's last show was last night. Of course i couldnt go. :'( ...in Augest, they are having a 90s cover show at GTO's. thats freaking rad. i saw this somewhere-- I am not going crazy, i am going sane in a Crazy world. that is amazing. This is such a stupid entry. i am hungry. ♥ Jessica.