This christmas was pretty good. i got some good things. a new beatles shirt was one. :) heather came over and we sang some Kareokee. we suck. period. i ate so freaking much today and now i think i have to throw up. blah. tommrow i have to go to my grandparent's house. not so fun. and monday i have to get on a plane at 7:10 am. joy. well i will be going to the most amazing place on the east coast. New york. fuck, i need to pack. i really do hope everyone had a good holiday. whatever holiday they are celebrating. i feel bad for being sad at times. i got a book for christmas called "be happy, damnit", lol my step dad got it for me. Well, i was reading it and i got mad at myself because i have been too busy being upset latley that i've forgotten who i really am. it sucks. i suck. so i'm changing. I'm not being fickle. i am being earnest with myself and everyone else. thank you ladies and gentlemen, Jess.