oh gosh i am about to write a happy entry. Brace yourself. i had a good theropy session this morning. i love blake. no matter what he is doing or what he has done or what he is about to do; at this very moment i love him more than any words in a meaningless internet diarie could explain. Heather has been at my house all the time for almost 2 weeks. its crazy. Christmas is sooo close and it is strange. On the 27th i will be leaving for New fucking York. i am excited like woah. New york during christmas, well after christmas. Amazing if you ask me. i am still half grounded. i can have people over, but i can't go anywhere. And i still cannot see Blake. which sucks. but i saw him yesterday. which was the best, ever. i almost peed in my pants. well kind of. maybe. well okay this happy entry is over. I will write again soon. :)