i have serious problems with this diary right now and the fact that it kicks me off before i can finish an entry and i always forget to copy it before i attempt to save it. damnit. i am PISSED. but its ok. because he makes me happy. and im changing my life, turning it around. im going to work hard, i'm going to get my fighting spirit back, i am not going to float through life. i will do my homework, i will be loyal to my boyfriend and my friends, i will be nicer to my family, i will keep all of my secrets to myself and those concerned. i will try to accept Him back into my life, even if it makes me feel very very uncomfortable and it makes me a hypocrit. i am signing up for habitat for humanity this year. will some of you guys do it with me? i will start piano again, trade in my french horn for a violin, and take vocal lessons. i will start babysitting to make money. and things will get better. i just know it.