im a lot better, i dont know exactly why...i was so stupid lol, i am laughing about how scared i was...that is talk for halloween, not christmas. anyways...i just didnt want anyone to think that i am over here crying and thinking that im gonna be killed in my sleep tonight. my parents say i seem older than i am. i am wondering if i know why that is right now. i am starting to believe that it is because i have no huge dreams. i dont want a corvette, i dont want to be rich or famous, i dont want some killer job, i dont want to go to an ivy league school. i just want to be happy, and get married to someone that loves me and wont hurt me. i want to have a few kids. i want to be a choir director. i dont have unrealistic dreams.