i slept horribly last night. horribly. it DID work, but only for a little while. i woke up at about 4 30 last night and i couldnt get back to sleep becuase i was freaking out again. i was nervous, worrying about a million things, what if he could smell it, and what if he isn't ok? and so i got 3 hours of sleep last night. and i cant fall back asleep. because what if they smell it. and now i have a tummy ache that won't seem to go away. and this feeling inside that scares me deeply. very deeply.i'm so scared for him... oh well. im off to get rid of the smell. cheers. ______________________________________ it worked. i just wish my paranoia had gone out the window with the smell. my music for anger:poison the well, korn music for sadness:staind music for feeling stagnant:the used music for dark:lisahall is this real, papa roach singular indestructable droid music for remembering:linkin park, dr dre, led zeppelin stairway to heaven, etc music for right now:britney spears, everytime ____________________________________________ *i cant explain how i feel ive been there many times before ive tasted the cold steel of my life crashing down before me but these words they cant replace the life you the life you waste.* -staind, "waste"