Fly away. Marilyn Manson rocks my world. Anyway. I really thought about killing myself today and I don't think its worth it. I'm better off even if I'm in pain for the rest of my life. I don't care anymore. I want to stop feeling sorry for myself. I'm just going to continue to cut and keep my mouth shut. Just fuck off bastards. Dean wants to date me but I dunno know. I really want to date Resa. She graduated last year. I still talk to her though. I'll get opinions. lol. Actually Dean wants to fuck me. I just don't think I'm ready for that. Nope I'm not. Anyway I'm taking my night school course and day school. I'm very busy. But I doubt I'll be too busy on the w/es. Anyway, I could come more to dating Resa than Dean. Mainly b/c my s-dad doesn't trust any guys and I don't either. I don't want to get hurt by a guy again. I've never really liked Dean like that. Maybe I just liked the idea. (???) I just have to wait on what Resa says I asked her out but she has to think about it. Which I can understand.--