I thought a lot today, I spent the day with mom painting her bedroom and going to the store with her. I think I'm more interested in guys right now than girls. I don't know why but I know I'm still bisexsexual of course but I want a long term relationship something serious. I really want to get married and have children later.. next 5 years maybe. I just wish I had listened to my heart before I hurt the love of my life.. I was so stupid back in 9th grade. Why did I fuck it up?--