Listening to: dripping water
Feeling: better
another weird thing is that... like you have a dream. no.. Imagine you are much younger than now & you are having a dream of something real directed to the future... like a guitar... a prince on a white horse... or some fame you wanna achieve. So years pass, you forget abt the dream, and now... It's all comes true.
And i do nothing! Nothing to achieve it. All just comes into my hands.
Hey, my aunty enchantress from a fairy tale, are you sure that the things you do are fine? because... these are...like.. fairy dreams that have nothing to do with real life i live... I dont know how to cope with all that... Could you give me a hint, ehe?
ohh ok its just i saw this and it blew past my head..
Take care, this is important
with a note
from russia
u should be glad
i mean
people work their whole lives busting their ass for their dream and in the end they are disillusion and broken
u got it handed to u right
so be glad u have it and dont let it get ripped from ur hands
ok
sorry if u dont feel proud
no need to
just feel happy
k
so like what are we talking about
what dream have become concrete
high-quality
oh yea
so like what was ur poison?
its bad! i bet you its bad. A dream is that something that you always try to reach (if u do have a dream).. but.. when you reach it - its no fun, you know... So you always have to go for smth new.
But once come that day when you understand "oh, shit. thats all nothing - thats all so changable... theres nothing you can really go to"
my dreams are nothing, the same as my goal, everything around me & me myself.
im not proud of anything now.
but there's nothing that i really wanna do... till i already know the result.
some would be happy.
im just not.
..
PS. (its just better for me to discuss thing at the place the question is started being discussed. I mean - if u ask a question in my diary-i answer (or try to answer) it right here)
so a dream is absract, beyond us like truth? we dont ever want to reach it but we think we do?
so its not the place ur heading but the trip that matters?
allthings are nothing?
what else is new?
im proud cause i am and i go on and one day it will matter last part my illusion i will matter
sad really
i care not for results but for life
define that what everyway u like
im sorry ur not happy
happieness is but a mean end all go for
ps
i will but u and i need to make them huge with alot of space
like this so it will be easier for us to find each other in the myarid of entries i get sometimes
so go to my place and i will have a new entry and anwers u are looking for with some questions ok
k
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so.. why's all that so blank out here?...
cause if God gave u lemons
make lemonade
oh yea
space is far out
ohyea
some are given a shitpit to live in, some say its a fuckin beautifull world. some can not define beauty from shit.
we are given something to do SOMETHING