Yeaps... I used to have a cactus. (It was alive for a half a year, not more i guess) It was a usual one..like... green, yeah. and extremely thorny. It never grew higher. it never flowered. but it seemed that it was growing wiser. day by day. thats what i kinda feel. growing wiser. may be older. i dunno. It seems to me that i noot just clearly see the things around and know what to do abt them. I start feeling how to live. may be just the matter of some life experience. but... i dont wanna enter the grown-up life.. maybe not the one that i think is a grown-up life.