no surprise life is a FIGHT me -vs- me i feel.. there are powers that are fighting IN me WITH me AGAINST me FOR me and .. i don't know who is gonna win. that something that wins will become my new FAITH and REASON of living. that all.. is so hard to put in words. OK... whatever. Just needed to put it down. _________________________________ Still. Life goes. 2 exams out of 4 are passed. Better than i'd expected. i take it as a .. routine. now i don't want to change anything. thats.. kinda sad.