dude okay bryan acts like now i dont care if he is cutting himself... i care i fucking care! i know i find it very cool and beautiful in its own right as a way 2 express urself and shit but.... bryans been talking about death... and about his cancer... Toxictouch13 [9:51 PM]: i hope my death is painful Toxictouch13 [9:55 PM]: i just wanted to let my emotions out of how i feel about this world, and how much i loved to cut mysefl and make myself suffer, i just want to feel the worst kind of physical pain before i die, i want to feel it....... cuz that is the only thing that makes me feel good when you are mad at me and i feel like evertyhing that i once loved me doens't, so i do shit to hurt myself... and tonight i just let out a lil of that wisdom Toxictouch13 [10:02 PM]: i was about to hop in the shower as well, get in the red bath see what i mean... every word out of his mouth is death.... earlier he was talking about his cancer again too... i cant lose him. i wont! fuck death. ok well im totally lost and i dont know what 2 do anymore. the world can just die. i can die with it... i made bryan cry 2night. i also upset him by saying what i felt.... which was, Sk8erChick2004 [10:03 PM]: honesty= uncovered lies Sk8erChick2004 [10:04 PM]: thats the best one Toxictouch13 [10:04 PM]: yeah i read Sk8erChick2004 [10:04 PM]: reminds me of u Toxictouch13 [10:04 PM]: :'( yeah thanks alot Sk8erChick2004 [10:05 PM]: sry i want to take his cancer away i want to stop his pain i want to be his everything. i want us to love each other so much it makes us 4get about the world.. i want tings to be like they were last winter, pure and true love. without him spending hundreds on me i dont need his money like last year, just his love.