im watching the macys thanksgiving day parade... my rents will leave at 1. ooh i cant wait bryan ACTUALLY covered 4 me. my mom wouldnt let me stay alone :/ he said i was going there. i want to hug him 4 that. what i really wanted tonight was to suprise bryan... make him dinner, have candlelight *just us* a perfect night then cuddle together under a big blanket and watch bruce almighty... cuz we went to see that movie together when it was in the theater. :( im such a dreamer. he never wants 2 talk to me again mainly because im not going to his g-mas w/ him 4 thanksgiving. 2 tell u the truth id feel odd and want to stay far away from everyone. and its not like i could. therefor i couldnt go. my moms making a big deal out of my 'being alone' psht... like she ever cared b4. i like the lonelyness sometimes. and i wouldnt eat no matter where i was... i feel sick lately all the time. well thank you (wisonantz) for the card. hehehe ur s/n cracks me up! and thank u 4 the comment colleen. =) tt4n ps. i have a feeling x-mas will be just as bad and twice as sad. :( ill prolly try to stay alone that day too