today *3:10* car pulls up *3:12* i run out 2 see wtf they want... its BRYAN! i run up and jump in his arms! he smiled so beautifully! *3:14* came inside... cold feets! *3:45* virgin suicides *4:06* wild rabid horney mode takes over and im all over him trying to get him to take me to my room *muhahaha* *4:08* sex on my bed *4:47* smoked a cigg then cleaning the house *together* awww *5:47* unfaithful *6:10* sex on the couch *7:17* he had to go... mike came *sigh* i swear... i lef tout a bunch a great stuffies! we held each other... laughed talked had fun... it was wonderful, and so was the sex... i was sooo suprised he came and was so glad he wasnt upset!!! man... he even loved my brownies (his gift) tho he said it was great 2 just be with me. i love him soo soo much, i asked if our relationship was based on sex and he said "no its just a bonus 4 us" hehehe. he really knows how 2 get my mind off my worries. i wasnt sad hardly at all while he was here... maybe just for 15 minutes when i realized he was going to his dads this weekend. and that i really wouldnt see him and i prayed to god in my head that he wouldnt go out and do shit. *sigh* maybe i need to let go a bit more, but if i do i know it will end us. i think ill try and go somewhere this weekend... i say that but the odds of that happening are like 1 in 1zillion. yea. anyways the afternoon was gr8... i missed him holding me in his arms. i never wanted to let go of him! thank you god for sending me this sweet angel from heaven! i love him more than my heart allows. it rips apart its so full. he's my one and only... my soul mate.