Waiting for Wendy to get here. GAH! But I read Mike's diary and I thought I was going to faint! AH! I love him so much! That is the greatest thing someone has done for me. If only my friends would read that. It makes sence. I only cut once a day and that is in the morning or whenever I take my first shower. I don't do it if I need it. I don't do it if I HAVE to have it. I only do it cause I want to. I don't want to have those scars living on my arm. Besides, it is only on one spot and it's not very large. I am careful to what I do. *sighs* That doesn't make it hurt less. It fucking hurts. Yet, I still do it cause for the first time in 6 years, I can really smile. It seems like I can finally be with all of this pain out of me. As long as it doesn't consume me, I will do it to better care for myself. I won't hurt myself like a normal cutter. Hell, I ain't even a fucking cutter. I'm not depressed. I just do it! Well...must go! I failed 4 classes! AH! But I have to take one in summer school. I'm going to second session. Just English... *sighs* Kari I hate everything all about you Why do I love you? You hate everything all about me Why do you love me?