Parents are gone...for a little while. Been listening to Ev all day. For those who know me...that's bad...VERY bad. I've been getting really suicidal lately. I think I am relapsing. I don't really want to die, but for the past four days... *sighs* I woke up one morning and just wanted to hang myself...today...I wanted to swallow pills and I was trying to decide which ones would be better. What in the hell is wrong with me? I can't do this again. I can't. Kari Now that I know what I'm without You can't just leave me Breathe into me and make me real Bring me to life